Zam,
Did you ever try to pretend-trade?
Make a trading plan, and pretend buy for $500 and make another portfolio with $2000 or $5000 parcels.
Have stop; profit target or exit strategy in place and at least you can have some idea how it’ll be when you accumulate enough money to trade for real.
On this board we have strong opponents of pretend-trading, but jet fighter pilots do it in simulators too and they must to get into real cockpit, so why such opposition to use safe survival technique in trading, don’t know.
Clock up 10 posts and make your first punt on stock trading competition, and if you get it right you can earn real money, and get some safe exposure.